Our First Month With Five

Our first month has flown by as life just doesn’t slow down as much as one would like to soak up those special first days and weeks.

I do however cherish the time I have had to just BE with Jonathan.

He loves to nurse and isn’t as much a ’sleepy’ baby as he started out being. He will gaze at us as we hold him and he will grasp my clothing or hand while nursing -his favorite activity.

It has been trying to get into a routine and I have been sometimes wanting to escape emotionally from the pressure of being a mom of five. Each one has individual needs. Needs that I don’t always feel up to fulfilling.

I am needing to remind myself to pray often and be more willing to wait on the answers for the next step.

Where do the hours go each day and am I doing the best for them that I can?

Is Jonathan getting all that he needs? He is gaining weight slowly still just under his birth weight. I am praying about what I can do to help him plump up and cry less. I do keep him near me as much as possible with a Rebozzo wrap. I plan on using more time to experiment with baby wearing and nursing as I work or teach the children their lessons. I keep feeling like I want to say we’ll just wait for x,y,z until he is bigger but you know the others can’t wait they need to be kept busy with age appropriate things or they truly regress. I put off blogging for the last month and I found today giving my time to catching up with journaling that I have a MUCH better perspective on our home and priorities. I mustn’t let go of the things that enrich my marriage and parenting. So I pray for whatever the new balance should be and wait for the next step. I will finish the birth story this weekend and that will bring back the sweet remembrance of bringing yet another beautiful being into this world.

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